New Beginnings

Well, the reason why I haven't been blogging here is mostly because I've been using a book as a journal instead cos its more private and less troublesome than blogging. That's an attempt to be more toughtful about things that happen in my life or observations and pointers that i gather from people. But of course the secondary reason is because I'm too lazy to blog. as usual eh. =)

so yes, to the random people who drop by once in 6 or more months...well i don't know if i'll continue with this blog but i won't delete it I guess! cya all =)

Dear MATTHIAS WEE RUI DE

APPEAL FOR ADMISSION TO NATIONAL UNIVERSITY OF SINGAPORE ACADEMIC YEAR 2008-2009

I regret to inform you that your appeal for admission or appeal for change of course to Medicine at the National University of Singapore (NUS) has not been successful.

The Admission Appeals Committee had considered your appeal and re-evaluated your application carefully, paying close attention to your strengths and expressed interests. However, due to the exceptionally strong applicant pool for Medicine and the limited places available for the course, the Committee has had to disappoint many students like you.

We thank you for taking time to submit this appeal and wish you all the best for your future.



Well so this is it..I don't know..is this a sign that I'm not meant to study medicine? People tell me maybe its not God's will, but if I apply that principle to everything in life, won't that be used as an excuse not to try again for failures? but then again, sometimes God may want us to put in more effort or His answer may be wait. So yes..I guess I'll just carry on in RBS and commission as an officer first, then apply next year.

Small People

I dunno why, but recently I've developed a strong dislike for small people with small ways. I obviously don't mean short people, its figurative! Constant childish behaviour, shallow or insincere comments..such things just get me down. The shallowness of conversation is shown from the subjects talked about..girls, soccer, what to do.. pretty much it. Its sad how the outward appearance of someone is such an important factor in judging a person. I hear comments about this lady, that actress (yeah no guys cos its army eh)..blah blah..how "her legs are too fat" , "eyes too small" , "ears too big" or "just damn ugly." This behaviour is simple abhorrent. Especially if the so-and-so commentator is not the slightest bit nice looking himself. Anyway, even if he is, it still doesnt give the right to mock at another person's looks. To me, its just a matter of keeping comments to myself, especially if they aren't flattering, or if you know that saying it will not help in any way. Yeah, but that's just me lol. I have a kind of "low standard", as some people put it. Its more like no standard. lol.

Ok I've no time or will to continue! Just wanted to write this down since I've been wanting to but have been too lazy to. =X

God, if the doors you have opened are not wide enough for me to walk through, do open a window that I may crawl through

Oh how incidental, today's my birthday. I'm 19! =)

Medicine medicine medicine...

AHHHH.

ARMY

Hello I'm blogging. Finally! haha..so many things have happened since last year man. phew. anyway, now I'm in army, already into the command school phase. looking back, i never believed that i could go into army man haha. just couldnt see myself enlisting and following routines set by others. its so against my nature heh. but here I am in ocs! sometimes i dunno how i've endured through the last few months, without getting my ankle busted or any other injuries etc..guess I have to thank God for bringing me through so much! =)

For me, the thing abt army is not the PT..I really dont mind training etc esp running..but i hate the outfield! GRR. wearing the vest and helmet..not bathing for days GRR. gah. haha. and of cos the lack of free time! and freedom. that;s so precious man.. sigh. But well, I trust God will carry me through the next few months!

Anyway one good thing that resulted from this is that I've become more confident about professing my faith..even in front of the whole wing. My wing commander asked me to share my personal vision, and I couldnt think of anything but saying that it is to serve God faithfully my whole life, and from there stems all the values that i hold to! Thank God for giving me the courage to say that, cos now I have the responsibility to show through my life God's work in me. I like it that my wing's stand is no vulgarities etc, though it may seem a bit weird not hearing Fs in every sentence lol.

I miss going out with church people! there's a kelong trip next week i'm so jealous! haha. argh miss you guys badly. the sad thing is even at the end of the year i may not be able to take enough leave to have fellowship with church people. so no PENANG trip! =(=( cries. haha.

OK i have to go alr man.. nice blogging matthias! =D

Prelims, sentosa, relationships and church

Wow. I feel like a stranger looking at my blog. Heh. Havent blogged for so long. There's no much to say, no time to do so. Oh well.

Let's see. Prelims are over..I've been mugging like mad for the past 2 weeks..and slacking since friday. Phew. Gotta study today. Had 2 class outings and 1 chorale outing within 5 days. Pretty fun and relaxxxxing. Sentosa took its toll on me though. 2 days of it! Argh i'm burnt quite badly heh =) but it was fun! Time of bonding and relaxing..and realising how unfit we all are =D

I've been gravely insulted this past week about my 'lack of romance' hahahaha. All I can say is, if you think that about me, you don't know anything about me. Yup. =) I guess most people don't..haha. No one in school I guess. And about being stingy, I prefer to call it thrifty. Learn to spead within your means, that's all I can say. You ain't working, don't spend more than you can take, and not unnecessarily. Esp on sponging GF/BF. Ok I'd better tone down a bit. To me, a relationship always has to be a 2-way one, in terms of affection, communication, and even financially (dating in this case). It's true that a guy should pay for most stuff, esp if its on a date. Ahah! The keyword here is MOST. Not all. And I dun think a girl should sit back and allow a guy to pay for her every need, its just not polite at all. Maybe after marriage but certaintly not when dating. A guy is not an ATM.

I thank my parents for cultivating such a sense in me, its sorely lacking in many youths today, especially since the general rise in income for most families enables parents to give their children more pocket money, causing children to value money less. It doesn't mean that if you get say, $400 a month, you should spend as much of it as possible, eat at restaurants all the time, buy expensive clothes, of spend it all on your GF/BF. Lol. That's my opinion. But I guess people have differing standards. That brings me to another point: expecting people to conform to your standards. Firstly, others may not be as rich as you. Secondly, others may not be willing to spend such money though they have it, as they don't hold to the same values as you. Of course the converse is true, and I should learn to be less critical of those who spend money like water =) there's a chinese proverb for you! =D How a person spends his/her money should be a private thing. Unless it falls into extremes, and of course a friend should always advise him/her. I hope I'm not a miser! =D Think I'm one? I've painstakingly saved $400+, but I certaintly dun think I'd forgo anything just to save money. Heh.

I hope I've not offended anyone, I'm just offering my views, so that anyone who's critical of them can understand the reasons why I refuse to hop into some random restaurant whenever the impluse strikes. Ok I dont really know why I have to worry about what people think; don't like it, too bad =) It's not like I'll rather pick up a $50 note than save a friend from drowning, or not treat a person who's really hardup for cash (unless he/she brought it upon himself/herself). Many people owe me a couple of dollars here and there, but I don't like to chase them for it. Heh. Execpt Laila! $86 bucks for grad night..LONG overdue! hahahah. tsktsk.

Since I'm actually blogging.. I'll talk about church. About 2 months ago..my parents transferred membership to a sister church from the same denomination (ERCS), because of the divorce and remarriage issue. It really long and comliicated, but basically, My former church (FE) held to allowance for remarriage of the innocent party, but my present church (CE) was against. Yup, so after this controversy, the denomination split, which needless to say, was painful. My parents moved to CE together with my younger bro and I, while my older siblings stayed at FE. Then, I hadn't taken COF at FE, so I just moved with my parents. ANYWAY, 2 months have passed, and its still very hard to find a footing at CE.. to say the least. Us J2s, we've all grown up together as a proud batch of 16 or more (the biggest!!) in FE.. and since then, many have left or drifted away. Now, Julia, Aaron and I have all moved to CE. As much as it is that doctrinal purity must be upheld, its very hard to leave so MANY friendships behind.. esp when it is hard to integrate with new people. Sigh. I've no time to write more. Another day!

CYA!